grrr.. i always read people's blogs and like how they miss their sec schl friends all the lame stuff and all.
but then i think about my own life. and then it just doesn't seem fair
i don't seem to be close to anyone
even my ONE best friend i don't talk to often anymore. she's closer to elaine now. and well i don't even know who else to consider my good friends. was i really too caught up in doing GOd knows what ??
sighs. even my band friends i'm not that close to. come to think about it. i'm not THAT close to my NCO mates. and well... my cedar friends ??
like zihui and ginny and jiahui and sandra ?? i don't even know what we're called. maybe i should just put more trust in my friends. sighs. why WHY WHY !!
even then in class i don't think we were THAT close. haiyaii screwed up life. and then NOW ? i don't even have friends i can call my good friends. its just all way screwed up . BLAH > freak !